sorry i haven't been on here for you but please don't think i'm not thinking about you i am always thinking about you it's the end of the year now and i'm glad i can put this year behind me it was a bad year before you died but loosing you just made it worse and god believe me it will never get any worse we have lots of plans in place to get memorials of you sorted - the tea trolleys for ward 3 and the dialosis unit - i know you hated those places but they did so much for you and us. lots of if onlys but it doesn't change things does it sweet heart we are not celebrating the new year we're drowning this one love you miss you xxxxxxx