Hey dad, it's my last AS Level exam tomorrow, I hope that I make you proud with the results! I've tried my best I hope you know that and you're not disappointed. I love you so much. I know it doesn't seem like everything's working out at the minute but I hope that I can make it all better. I hate missing out on family stuff and I don't want anyone to feel used by me because I love everyone so much like seriously! They're all I have left of you and more than that they're my family and I hope that you're not too disappointed in me. I guess I should've handled it differently but there are somethings that I can't cope with still and I hate the fact that these things are keeping me away from some of the most important people in my life. I love you so much and I hope you know that I'm never gonna stop loving you daddy, I promise - you're always in my heart. I wanna make you proud! I just wish you were here to be with me when I get my results and celebrate with me (hopefully!) I know you'll be by my side but I'd give anything to have a hug from you dad ... please? I love you! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx